Before it’s too late.

You were so happy before things got serious between us. 
You were so happy before we met.

You were involved in so many things and I feel like I’ve stopped you from having fun. I’m so sorry. I really am. If you could see me right now you’d see how sorry I am. I took your joy away and the excitement from your life. I isolated you from everything.

I realized tonight, after seeing how different you looked to me in that picture I stared of you before, that you’ve changed. We both did. It hurts so much wondering where all that went. Why it can’t come back.

We don’t understand each other. Maybe we don’t care any more. I do, though. God, it hurts. This. In my chest. It hurts. So much. I am pushed to the limit. Pull me back. I remember so many things. I never thought we’d be this bad.

They say absence makes the heart grow fonder. And you’ve been absent from my
life for 16 years.
Imagine how much you mean to me.